{"id":559,"date":"2012-09-22T22:23:37","date_gmt":"2012-09-23T03:23:37","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/wordsfromthehomefront.com\/?p=559"},"modified":"2016-11-02T23:30:42","modified_gmt":"2016-11-03T04:30:42","slug":"walking-a-tightropethere-are-days-i-sit-after-posting-on-the-blog-that-i-wait-i-look-at-my-phone-frequently-if-im-not-home-if-im-home-on-my-computer-i-watch-for-the-little-banner","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wordsfromthehomefront.com\/index.php\/2012\/09\/22\/walking-a-tightropethere-are-days-i-sit-after-posting-on-the-blog-that-i-wait-i-look-at-my-phone-frequently-if-im-not-home-if-im-home-on-my-computer-i-watch-for-the-little-banner\/","title":{"rendered":"Walking a Tightrope"},"content":{"rendered":"

There are days I sit after posting on the blog that I wait. I look at my phone frequently if I\u2019m not home; if I\u2019m home on my computer, I watch for the little banner that shows there\u2019s new mail. I\u2019m watching for the notification that tells me someone has visited\/commented on the blog. You see, that\u2019s the only way we bloggers have to know that we are not writing to Blogging Limbo that someone is actually reading what we wrote. There are also times when I\u2019ve posted and there\u2019s not one comment and I think: \u2018Oh, gee, I was right all along. I really have nothing to say to anyone. It\u2019s not worth it. I\u2019m gonna eat a big fat worm and die.\u2019 \u00a0And then-there are other days that I set that post out there and just release it and let it go and never think twice about responses or worth or the post for that matter. Because I had to write.<\/span><\/p>\n

I am walking a tightrope. I lean first one way then the other.\u00a0<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

I seek affirmation. As I heard someone say recently: \u201cI\u2019m an affirmation junkie, my cup has a crack in it and I\u2019m always wanting it refilled\u201d. It\u2019s not praise I\u2019m looking for, I just want to know that I\u2019m on the right track; that my writing is not so far out there that you need a ride on the space shuttle to get it.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

The posts that sit out there like overripe fruit on the vine and nothing happens, the times I think that this is the best thing I\u2019ve ever written and dead space is all I see- I must admit are a challenge to my understanding and my sense of worth at times.<\/span><\/p>\n

Then there are moments I\u00a0know<\/em>\u00a0that it says just what it\u2019s supposed to say.\u00a0 The days when I\u2019m not concerned about reaching just anyone, the day when I hear that whisper to my heart-\u00a0\u201cThat\u2019s what I wanted you to say. There\u2019s one person out there that needs to read this; I\u2019ll get her there, you just post it.\u201d\u00a0<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

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If you are a writer, I know you know exactly the feelings I\u2019m talking about. If you are a reader, you know this happens throughout life, too.\u00a0 The compelling thing is that we humans need feedback, whether it\u2019s a smile, a bear hug from our little critters, a note, a message, a text, an email, or just a look. We all want that from our fellow humans; I think we look for that from others to justify our existence as members of the human race.<\/span><\/p>\n

As believers, it can be very difficult to walk that tightrope in the upright position. We are pulled by media, friends, a desire for worth, pride. So many things. We want recognition for a job well done. Otherwise, our self worth ends up in the tank of \u201cI don\u2019t deserve anything\u201d. When we look to the world we are pulled off balance one way or the other. The reality is that God\u2019s purpose for us is neither tons of praise nor the depths of worthlessness.<\/span><\/p>\n

It\u2019s when we focus on Jesus that we find we don\u2019t lean more one direction or the other. Our worth, our affirmation, our identity is in Him. He keeps us balanced. The challenge and opportunity we see before us is there all the time.\u00a0 For me, the challenge is to constantly check what I\u2019m writing with the Holy Spirit; to not go off on a tangent, a rant, or climb up on the soapbox (ok, ok, you can stop laughing now).\u00a0 The opportunity? To see the gift He\u2019s given me put to use the way He desires.<\/span><\/p>\n

How\u2019s it going on your tightrope?<\/span><\/p>\n

For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light<\/span><\/em><\/span>\u00a0(for the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth)<\/span>\u00a0and\u00a0find out what pleases the Lord<\/span>. Ephesians 5:8-10<\/span><\/span><\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

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\u00a0<\/span><\/em><\/span>Be very careful, then, how you live\u2014not as unwise but as wise,<\/span><\/em><\/span><\/span>\u00a0making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil.<\/span>\u00a0Therefore do not be foolish, but\u00a0understand what the Lord\u2019s will is<\/span>. Ephesians 5:15-17<\/span><\/span><\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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